Jacques Rigaut – Sanctified Through Suicide

I walk on the shores of despair, looking at the vast chaos of a world I am not a part of.
It seems easier to sink than to swim.
The cerulean hues guide me to my destination.
I will arrive before anyone else.
Everything accelerates to a halt.


Burnt Out

He’d blend in with the rest on the city streets. Another faceless man to walk by, plain and fatigued.

He is lost in the thoughts of a childhood he never experienced. Everything was better because it never happened. Every success praised, every failure comforted. The young child is inspired and full of dreams. In his eyes not a hint of distress and the only tears he shed were tears of happiness. He is among friends, unaware of what solitude felt. He would go on exceeding expectations and live every day of enjoyment. Birthdays are celebrated. Smiles and laughter. They all love him. He could feel.

His only wish was for it to be… but it’s only better because it never happened. He sits alone now, holding his knees and staring at the vacant space of the suffocating room. He is the child of dreams, he is the man of delusions. How pathetic it is, to be killed by memories of a fictional past. So, selfishly consider that his pain is nothing compared to others’.

– 17 March 2017

Execution Series

As I watched my childhood cartoon series, Prince of Tennis, I came across a character by the name of Tono Atsukyo. He plays tennis violently and uses execution methods as his signature playstyle. He mentions the lack of brutal execution methods in the present day and expresses his dissatisfaction about this.

Watching this made me think further of the notion: Wrong-doers all deserve their own punishment, and those who do good will be rewarded. Is death penalty too inhumane or should it be implemented in every country? Is it not the crime committed that is inhumane? If it was something they would regret doing, they should have thought long enough before they did it. Should the upholders of law re-evaluate whether they should execute a person for their crimes, when the criminal themselves did not stop to think about others’ sentiments when they committed the crime?

The problem with people is that they involve emotions at the wrong places. While it‘s good to forgive others for the mistakes they made, the mistakes are also something that the individual must pay for. Only then, they could be equal to an innocent. If you kill a man, then it’s only fair that you are killed too. (It’s important to note that I don’t believe that death penalty is considered the same as murdering someone. It’s more to punishing them.)

But do criminals have their reasons for doing what they do? It could be their mix of socioeconomic background and personality that drove them to this path. I decided to delve into possible situations of what could be going on in their minds as they commit crimes in order to rationalise and understand the emotions better. Despite acknowledging the inmates’ possible rationale, it does not imply that I regard their sins as acceptable. I look from a vantage point of neutrality, without the involvement of emotions for them. It happened, that is all there is to it.

We all make mistakes; the difference is whether we accept that fact as well as how we deal with the aftermath. As I am heavily inspired by Jacques Rigaut, I see death as the most sanctified state, the culmination of our existence. If the person had done others wrong, this belief is further supported because they are given their due punishment. Upon their death, their debts are paid. On the other hand, I believe that death is also meaningless because it comes for us all; it is a common occurrence.

There are some people who claim it is justifiable that those who have committed crimes are tortured. I disagree. An execution would suffice.

In general, the execution methods were used merely as guidelines to making these artwork. Alongside the artwork, I’ve included my “Perfidious Thoughts”. Each tell a story of their own. Enjoy!

My Last Post Was In August

And that is bad. I will continue to update this as much as I can.
I am now half- way through my final semester and that is the reason for my absence.
We are preparing for a little “student exhibition” to sort of wrap up the entire course.
As mentioned way back, my idea for the exhibition is based on executions.
To unite my classmate and I’s work (since the 2 of us will exhibit our works together), we came up with an exhibition name… “Aether”. What does it mean??? More commonly spelled as “ether”, it can be the skies, or that chemical compound you might have came across in chemistry, or perhaps something far beyond…

Aaaah, I won’t disclose too much on this. But I will definitely upload the e-catalogue once it’s ready. So, stay tuned.

In the mean time, here’s a little sneak peak to my new artwork:

His Name is 14